I genuinely loved going on my social media platforms. Each one had a purpose. Instagram allowed me to be aesthetically artsy. Facebook allowed me to be a host of funny content. Snapchat allowed me to keep in touch with friends on a daily basis. Every scroll, like, and post had a reason behind it.
Now, it has become mindless, boring, and pointless. I don’t realize what I’ve scrolled past or what I’ve shared anymore.
A while ago, I started taking breaks from social media. They usually ranged between two weeks to a month long. I usually took a break when I realized I opened the same three apps at least twenty times a day.
My last break just ended about a little more than a week ago, and with it, ended my desire to ever go on social media again.
Every time I go on, I feel like I’m wasting my time. I scroll and see the same thing over and over again. I don’t even look at my screen anymore while I scroll. I’ve noticed that every time I open an app, it’s because I’m bored.
I want to be more conscious of what I do. There are so many things I want to do that I say I never have time for, such as read or write or play games or even just take a walk somewhere.
Then, I feel guilty, because I realize all the time I spend on social media can be spent doing those exact things.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to unplug completely. My twitter and instagram accounts for my author platform are full with people on the same writing journey as me, and I love connecting with them.
However, my personal accounts, I’ve slowly cared less for. They’re full of people I hardly talk to. My real friends are those I talk to directly, not through shared posts.
So, I’ve taken steps to lessen my social media intake. I’ve deleted the Facebook app on my phone, and I’ve limited my use of Instgram and Twitter to twice a day.
I hope, in the far future, I can get to a point where I use none of these, because I’m actually enjoying their absence.
I’m reading more, playing the video games I’ve wanted to play for years, and I’m finding my news through the sources I personally trust.
It’s liberating to know that I don’t need social media in my life. For some reason, I always felt like I had to be on there. It was unthinkable to not be on social media.
However, people do it all the time, including a good friend of mine. She has all these social media platforms that she never goes on, and I’ve secretly been jealous of that.
I’m finally letting go of this idea that I need to be on social media. I want to consume content that makes me smile, curious, and excited. I also want to live my life away from the screen.
The truth is the world is hurdling toward a future full of screens. It’s inevitable. I don’t want to fight that. I believe technology is an incredible thing.
I just want to find a balance that makes me feel like a better, healthier me.